꧁✿🌸╭⊱ Cherry the Queen⊱╮🌸✿꧂

"I was able to explore my own self and identity" Last three months I have been playing this game, where its important for growing and going forward to have some sort of community or friends or allies to play with.  At first the game really gave me lot of energy and it was like breath of fresh air for me to be able to do something else, than just survive in my daily life. I was able to be effective in what I do, and accepted as a member of online community. What is difficult, is of course to find out, what mindset each of player is actually having, because for some people its purely fun and games, and other people are seeking for deeper connections and like anywhere , some people might not have good intentions in the first place.  I wasnt thinking this too much, since I tend to be overly naive and forget that people can be so different. Luckily I havent actually faced any major hardships within the community I play, but since those people were so supportive and some of the...

I was sitting on a bench outside, sweating and gasping my breath. I felt invisible pressure holding my whole body still. I looked calm and relaxed, but inside me there were only terror and fear. I had a sensation of being same time inside my body, but also not fully there- like some part of my mind was wandering outside of me. My vision was narrowed, my mouth was dry and my heart was racing.  In my thoughts knew I needed to start walking and go home to rest ,but my body couldn't take instructions from my mind,I was totally frozen and unable to move anywhere. I was having panic attack triggered by trauma. (this happend 8 years ago) I guess if one hasn't experienced panic or anxiety attacks or had some sort of trauma memories suddenly taking over your whole current being, its hard to fully understand how that can be. Panic attacks has some symptoms that are common to happen, but at least from my personal experience those symptoms keep changing. Sometimes I only have one of the sy...