Just Cherry , decision to Quit the KC

In the past couple of weeks, I haven't felt like my usual self, influenced by both in-game events and real-life occurrences. Despite my efforts to recover, I've struggled to regain my full composure. Initially, I wasn't addicted to the game, and I could control my actions and words better. Lately, however, I've found myself reacting more than thinking, leading to less-than-optimal in-game decisions.

I've never been a member of an online community until I started playing Kings Choice, a mobile game. Communication typically extends to Discord if one wishes. I wholeheartedly jumped in, realizing there are various ways people participate in the game. While the game allows freedom in choosing one's playstyle, including schemes and deception, my struggle arose when trying to balance strategic gameplay with a focus on community and relationships.

Over the last six months, I shifted my focus to building connections beyond the game. I created a Discord server with the purpose of fostering connections rather than emphasizing a strategic standpoint. However, clashes occurred when different mindsets and playing styles collided, leading to complications. It became challenging to discern whether others viewed the community as solely a gaming one or were willing to extend connections beyond the game.

Reflecting on my experiences, I recognized that my mindset was more community-based than game-focused. Although the "It's only a game" mindset is valid, I personally couldn't separate myself enough for it to feel right, especially as the atmosphere remained focused on strategic gameplay.

While I've made mistakes and faced complications due to different playing styles, I don't regret my journey. I've realized that everyone has their moral baseline, and demanding conformity is unrealistic. Personally, I couldn't continue deceiving players for in-game advantages without losing part of myself.

"It's only a game" isn't true for me; I found aspects of myself, faced therapeutic revelations, and navigated through both dark and uplifting experiences even felling love with some and mostly to myself. However, the game began taking more than it gave, becoming draining. My decision to quit stems from the realization that I'm not the type of person who can play with a purely strategic mindset for an extended period.

Despite the blessings and personal growth, the online gaming world started to overwhelm. My decision to quit Kings Choice involves a desire to maintain authenticity and avoid getting caught up in the darker side of online communication. The last few months have left me feeling drained due to clashes in mindsets, unmet expectations, and a realization that expecting connections beyond the game is unfair.

The increasing tiredness, particularly when involved with the gaming community and its issues, prompted me to take a clean break. It felt necessary as I couldn't clearly distinguish between friends and foes or understand the various mindsets at play. In recent issues I've been part of, I can't confidently claim total knowledge in making any statements. My participation, though aimed at building something positive, may have inadvertently been unhelpful to some.

I've decided to step back from Kings Choice, not vanishing completely but redirecting my focus to connections that extend beyond the game and lack strategic purposes. The decision to quit has been brewing for some time, weighed against pros and cons, particularly those related to the people involved.

For those facing confusion and offenses in the game, I offer a piece of advice: mindsets vary. I don't refer to direct threats but rather deceptions and alliances. Some actions may be morally questionable to some but still within the game's legal framework. While moral rules may not be explicitly defined in the game, it's essential to recognize that many actions are not personal, though some may be.

I'll be changing my name to "Something Cherry" in places where I have accounts, with the "something" part altered. I won't return to playing strategically or participating in teams or deals. I'll simply be Cherry, the Royal flower that I was born to be.

But first, I will go and have long vacation from all gaming communities and topics and gonna celebrate my 35 Birthday and gonna enjoy my life. 

Thanks so much everyone, and see you beyond  the game or occasionally if I visit the game somewhere someday! 

Xoxo Cherry