꧁✿🌸╭⊱ Cherry the Queen⊱╮🌸✿꧂

In the past couple of weeks, I haven't felt like my usual self, influenced by both in-game events and real-life occurrences. Despite my efforts to recover, I've struggled to regain my full composure. Initially, I wasn't addicted to the game, and I could control my actions and words better. Lately, however, I've found myself reacting more than thinking, leading to less-than-optimal in-game decisions. I've never been a member of an online community until I started playing Kings Choice, a mobile game. Communication typically extends to Discord if one wishes. I wholeheartedly jumped in, realizing there are various ways people participate in the game. While the game allows freedom in choosing one's playstyle, including schemes and deception, my struggle arose when trying to balance strategic gameplay with a focus on community and relationships. Over the last six months, I shifted my focus to building connections beyond the game. I created a Discord server with the pu...

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I dont speak with names, nor I will tell any context, since the purpose of this text is not to expose anyone from my past, nor try to effect anyones thinking, who might have been there, when these events occured. Purpose for this is to give this story from my point of view of situation, where I was that time, and hopefully help someone else some day to face similar situation, and break the stigma that someone might have when they were been lied or manipulated to.  #Mentalhealthawaraness   I realized --I was being manipulated   When I realized I was speaking with someone whose words were deceiving and purposely misleading my first feeling was anger. I was really hurt because someone was intentionally twisting the truth which made me question my view of other people and possibly would break certain connections I had built. On that day I knew, I was being manipulated by someone, who I thought was friend of mine. And thinking they might have done the same to someone else...

 In the middle of the night a lake was seen among ancient trees, reflecting the beauty of the stars and the fading crescent moon. The lake seemed to shimmer like liquid stardust, as if the heavens themselves had poured their secrets into its waters.  At the heart of  lake, a small boat gently rocked with the rhythm of the water's embrace. In the boat sat a lonely guy who seemed to be lost in his thoughts, pondering the mysteries of the universe.  There was a sense of wonderment in his eyes, like he would have been at the edge of unraveling the secrets of existence.  In this moment of quietness he took a deep breath, inhaling the pure night air, and then he whispered quietly to the universe. His words were a gentle invitation, a way of reaching out to the cosmos, asking for guidance on his path. There was an unspoken understanding between him and the universe, a connection that was made beyond the time and space. He knew he wasn't possessed all the answers yet, b...

"I was able to explore my own self and identity" Last three months I have been playing this game, where its important for growing and going forward to have some sort of community or friends or allies to play with.  At first the game really gave me lot of energy and it was like breath of fresh air for me to be able to do something else, than just survive in my daily life. I was able to be effective in what I do, and accepted as a member of online community. What is difficult, is of course to find out, what mindset each of player is actually having, because for some people its purely fun and games, and other people are seeking for deeper connections and like anywhere , some people might not have good intentions in the first place.  I wasnt thinking this too much, since I tend to be overly naive and forget that people can be so different. Luckily I havent actually faced any major hardships within the community I play, but since those people were so supportive and some of the...

I was sitting on a bench outside, sweating and gasping my breath. I felt invisible pressure holding my whole body still. I looked calm and relaxed, but inside me there were only terror and fear. I had a sensation of being same time inside my body, but also not fully there- like some part of my mind was wandering outside of me. My vision was narrowed, my mouth was dry and my heart was racing.  In my thoughts knew I needed to start walking and go home to rest ,but my body couldn't take instructions from my mind,I was totally frozen and unable to move anywhere. I was having panic attack triggered by trauma. (this happend 8 years ago) I guess if one hasn't experienced panic or anxiety attacks or had some sort of trauma memories suddenly taking over your whole current being, its hard to fully understand how that can be. Panic attacks has some symptoms that are common to happen, but at least from my personal experience those symptoms keep changing. Sometimes I only have one of the sy...